We all have have ups and downs in life. We have frustrations and angry feelings. The questions are "whats the best way do you deal with it"? Do you numb yourself and avoid them? Lock yourself in your room and cry and feeling sorry for yourself? Or do you simply discharging the negative feelings out in public through snide remarks, cussing - or worse - ?
Lately, I've been constantly feeling frustrated.
Its insane how I sometimes think that im the victim of my desicions and say "why me", 'why did this happen to me?". I know popping those questions its a waste of time and energy and it just makes me even more frustrated.
Whenever frustrations starts to kicked in, It starts to pile up other unrelated things on top of the frustrations and this clouds the issue. I sometimes mismanage it and my frustrations becomes toxic to my relationships. It causes a build-up of resentment that—even when over only small things—can ultimately overwhelm any desire to relate in a positive fashion. And no one likes living in a perpetual state of annoyance or anger (no matter how much it may seem like they do or how the person around us loves us). it will come to the point where the environment is no longer health.
I admit, I tried to suppress or ignore frustrations but in doing so it would only make it worse, often causing me to magnify the import of whatever complaint I have against whoever frustrated me. I then often find myself typecasting the "person" into a black-and-white caricature of himself; he become entirely self-centered, entirely insensitive, and entirely over-entitled. In one fell swoop I lose sight of everything good within him. And from this perspective arises a significantly increased risk for voicing hurtful words or taking dramatic action which I later bitterly regret.
I dont usually enumerate to myself as to what im so frustrated about. Because when I do that I felt like im beating myself up. Sad part about my situation is that, I got no one whom I can talk to about it, some one who is not going to judge me. I cant just talk about it to just anyone, not even family and friends.If only I have that someone, it would be a relief.
Since I got no one to talk about my frustrations, sadness and anger. I end up crying my eyes out at night in silence, locking myself in the bathroom crying or sometimes when I'm taking a shower. Allowing myself the space to cry actually works wonders on freeing up stored up energy that is too much to contain within.
I sometimes punch a pillow. I get so angry of myself that I have this desire to hit something
I rarely write about frustration (I heard that's one healthy way to vent).
The tendency of not been able to vent out my feelings is finding myself exploding and getting really angry. As much as possible I wanna express those frustrations and angry feelings coz if im not be able to, feeling of depression and anxiety will follow.
